I'm really pissed right now, my mom, dad, and I just got finished having a yelling fest about a couple different things and if i'm on dA I won't be doing much but faveing and comenting shit.

1st thing was my wanting to be a therapist. We got onto this subject because I was telling mom she shouldn't have allowed my sister's "friend" to come over to her b-day pat since she's such a pain. I mean, last year the child came completly uninvited to my sister's b-day and my mom not wanting to be a bitch told her father that she wasn't invited, but the snekly little child ran off and stayed. My dad argued that making the kid leave would have given her "mental scars", but the child's a user and eventually the bitch gots tah learn that you can't step on everybody. I told dad he was defending other people, like he always does, and told him if it was his child over someone else's damn, he'd choose his, unless he was completly psyco or something. Personally I hate children, but the kid wasn't invited, let the user learn, don't award her for her lies.

Then my father went on to bitch about how was I going to be a therapist if I didn't enjoy it, was I doing it for the money. I told him that was dumb and that there are other profesions that pay WAAAAY more then therapy does. Then we went on me kind of explaining how I felt and then totally getting ignored by him as he yelled at me about how wrong I was. Therapy isn't an exact scince, he should listen to his dumb self sometimes. UGH!!!!! I also told him I wasn't going to be a christian therapist, because preaching to people about god (one i don't believe in) is STUPID!

2nd Was more of my mom and myself, I told her I was upset and felt that she was completely ignoring my needs while she goes above and beyond for my sister who she and I both say is an ass hole. I went on to say that I'm still not signed up for DRIVERS ED YET and I'm fucking 15, I also said that I was having medical issues that she knew about and wasn't helping me with them (MY PERIOD IS OFF), then I went on to say that they weren't supporting my interests.. dad went on to argue that oh well I take Anthony home and oh what about poetry nigh (fuck I've only gone 2 times!!!).... I said I've been asking about getting into POINTE BALLET and I'M NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER HERE!!!!! Mom went on to bitch about PHOTOGRAPHY which I promptly shut her up about, FUCK IS IT SO WRONG OF ME TO WANT TO BE A MODEL?! I MEAN PEOPLE ARE WILLING TO PAY ME, ITS A GODDAMN JOB ITS NOT LIKE I'M GETTING ANY THINNER OR PRETTIER!!!!!!!!! Also that I am in desperate need of new glasses. I mean, all I ask for is Animazement!!!!! And my sister asks for stuff stuff stuff stuff!!! And she gets it! Should I be a bitch? Because that seems to be the only way for me to get the things I need/desire. Apparently I don't ask enough, I try to ask her I really do, but when I do mom yells at me about how she's over worked and can't do anything. Gee mom, do you REALLY think I wanna ask you for stuff all the time? I mean surley, you don't think I can handle being bitched at about how crappy your life is anymore than I already get treated with and its not like I actually WANT to hound you about this stuff all the damn time, I just have to because it doesn't get done.


Anyways... I'm completly distraugt about not being able to do the things I want to do... Like dance and model, its not to be a slut, its for the fun of it AND THE GODDAMN MONEY DAD'S NOT GETTING ANOTHER JOB FOR AWHILE PEOPLE!!!!! I MEAN MY PARENTS COULD MAKE SOME MONEY FOR BRINGING ME PLACES!!!!!!!!! I feel so alone, sad, angry, afraid, and ignored. My vagina and eyeballs are completly fucked up, Anthony's father is not letting me talk to him.... I fear he's the only person I have.... I'm getting fat... My math grade is terrible.... No one really cares about me... I need some kind of love, I'm teired of having to give the love I don't have all the time and all my relationship with anthony seems to be is a lonley guy who can't see his real girlfriend seeking what he doesn't get from his best friend, I feel abused... And all I have is problems deadlines and pain..... I'm going on hiatus for awhile..... I'm sorry....


THANK YOU FOR ALL THE KIND COMMENTS YOU GUYS HAVE LEFT ME, I KNOW I MUST WEAR ON YOU WITH MY DRAMA AND I'M SORRY. I JUST WANTED TO THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE KINDNESS, COMMENTS, FAVES, AND THE GIFT ART. GOOD BYE...